Thursday, February 28, 2008

No, I am absolutely NOT having a whale of a time over here at SA. There seems to be a lot of things that are going wrong when I talk about it now. There's really nothing worth going to school for. Once I thought it was a blessing that I was able to go to this god-forsaken place, but now the reason I chose this place is only making it more painful. I wish I never knew you.

First thing thats going wrong. They say the SA uniform is the best of all the JCs. But I see how that is backfiring. I can't seem to get the length of the cursed tie correct. According to external sources, it's either too long or too short. I wonder how you get it right all the time.

I guess you're just too perfect for me.

And as with all JCs, I have to stay in school until... 4? Or was it 5? Every single day. And the bulk of it is not lectures, not tutorials, but empty periods that have you slacking around the school compound absolutely doing nothing. When you have to go through that, I assure you you'd wish you could go for one of those PoA remedials we used to have ever so often. As I have. But the time is supposed to be spent doing your work, so you won't fail. But I guess I just don't have the self-discipline. How do you always seem to have the best plan?

I guess you're just that much more than me.

While others are telling me how much fun their class is, I just can't seem to see the same happening to myself. I was like, so full of hope that I'd get into a class like 4E6, so lively, so friendly. But no, I had to get into the asshole of the school. But don't get me wrong, it's not like they are unfriendly or anything, or is it that I'm friendless. I'm not. It's just that I don't enjoy being here. I want to be elsewhere, with you.

But I guess you're just out of my league.

I have plans, of course I do. I'm going to take part in the annual sports day, for the 800m sprint and the 1500m run, maybe the relay? If I can find people to do it with me. And when I stand there with my medal, I want you there with me.

Oh wait.

Who the hell am I kidding.